Oi, oi. If I died back there it wouldn't have been your fault.
[He frowns, finally looking back up at Hakkai from beneath the curtain of his hair.]
My choices got me where I was. My actions. That ain't on you.
[He, of course, knew about Kanan. It'd been how they met in the end, after all. The last thing he wanted if something did happen to him was for Hakkai to blame himself. That might be inevitable, but Gojyo could at least make his stance on the issue clear.
Gojyo gave his hand a squeeze.]
I ain't planning on going anywhere, here or there. Even in the future. Even if--
[He lets go of the bedsheet to gesture at his neck.]
-- this thing decides to fuck up my life. You're important too.
[The next words catch in his throat. He forces them out anyway.]
Never had anyone in my life before who gave a shit and didn't take off.
Hm. I... believe you feel that way. [With the unspoken statement he can't bring himself to do the same. He couldn't not blame himself for another loss. For letting himself become so closely attached to someone else he couldn't save. That mark may as well be a sword hung over Gojyo's head.]
[And he can't do a damn thing about it.] I just can't accept it again. I couldn't take it again. Losing someone who means...
[Means an entire world. It would be the last straw. The final blow. He wouldn't really care for anything else. Or try to. Why bother? Just let the monster take over. Let himself go - let one of the others take the shot. Yeah, this would be the most dramatic of bitches here.]
[He's quiet for a while then, just lacing their fingers tighter together. Should he do this? Venture forward? Gojyo is being vulnerable here. He's offering more than Hakkai has. It's not fair to him to just leave things as they are...]
[He swallows.]
Of course I won't go anywhere. My next partner has to be someone indestructible, as... you always call yourself.
[His head feels like it's going to explode, heart hammering louder and louder in his ears.]
It'd been a joke, followed by a quip about how all of his kids would get a crush on their 'Uncle Gojyo.' Hakkai's future wife, he'd said.
Forty years.
It'd be too sexy.
The almost panicked way he kept his mark from him, even if this Hakkai has no memory of it.
Reality settles in, settling like sheets of rice paper. Each one with a different part of the puzzle. Layered together the picture was clear.]
You--
[But his fingers were tight where they twined with Hakkai's. He wasn't about to let him pull away, not now. Even as he stared at him, eyes wide. Breathless.]
[He very nearly does pull away. Pull himself back off the bed. The silence, while understandable, as the gears in Gojyo's head slowly grind to life - just a little faster than the hamster wheel in Goku's. He should know that. But in this moment, with this revelation, he can't help but let his mind start to spiral.]
[And his mouth with it.]
I know, it's - absurd, isn't it? I'm nothing like the usual sorts you prefer, in any way. It's just not possible. I irritate you, for one thing. Nagging, that's what you call it, isn't it? Or called it. But you see why I offered to go? Why I offered to find my own residence? I shouldn't burden you with something like this. I can't ask for more than just friendship - it won't make you any less important in my life, I don't think that's possible -
[oh my god shut up]
[Because he's still going. He's still laying out every reason he's absolutely sure this won't go anywhere but awkwardly. He's still saying he understands, he's a criminal, he's committed horrible acts, no one should want anything like a relationship with him. Let alone someone who is an actual decent person.]
[He can't even bring himself to look into Gojyo's eyes. Even while he feels them on him. He doesn't want to see what he fears.]
[Incredulity? Rejection? Something along those lines.]
[Hakkai is still rambling when he drops his head into his other hand. To hide his own expression better.]
[Honestly, the rambling is a relief. While he goes off Gojyo's eyes search him, still absorbing the revelation that his best friend has the hots for him. Maybe even loves him. It lets him see the reality of it all through the familiarity of his trademark self depreciation.
After a moment the sound of Hakkai's voice fades out. It's a white noise he can handle because he's seen it... well, not often, but often enough to know what it means. This, he can read.
A soft smile tugs at the corners of his mouth unbidden, and he leans forward. Hands still twined, he closes the distance between them in a manner not entirely unfamiliar. Gojyo has always been physical, after all. Slinging an arm over his shoulder, ruffling his hair. Just generally being in his space.
Being here wasn't unfamiliar at all. It grounded him. And suddenly he knew exactly what to do.]
Oi. Quit that.
[And he rapped at Hakkai's head with his palm.]
You're assuming shit again. Maybe you oughta actually ask me what I think before jumping ten steps ahead.
[Honestly, Hakkai probably would have kept rambling on and on, repeating himself once he got to the end of the list of reasons he was unfit for any form of romantic companionship. It was just his way. The usual way.]
[Until Gojyo's hand contacts his head.]
[It's like hitting the reset button on a computer. Or skip on a disc player. He kind of blinks. Rapidly. His train of thought literally off the tracks. For a good handful of seconds, he can only stare.]
... Oh. I... hadn't thought of that.
[Yeah, no shit. But in his defense, however small it may be, he hadn't actually thought they would ever have this conversation.]
Maybe - it's that I'm concerned of what the answer will be...
[He knows how easy it'd be for him to hurt Hakkai. How fragile he is when it comes to the people he cares about. And even before all of this thee fact that he cared about Gojyo was undeniable. As was the fact that it was reciprocated.
Gojyo had to admire how brave he had to be to come this far. For him this was a huge leap. A huge risk. It deserved at least as much back.]
I had no idea. Seriously none. Probably makes me a dumbass, but I--
[He swallows, his tone softening.]
I never had anyone ... [He gestures with is free hand.] You know. Care about me like this. Ain't never done more than sleep with a girl or a friend or whatever. And even then they didn't exactly stick around. [He exhales a mirthless laugh.] Hell, you know my family situation. So not much love there either.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing.
[Gojyo's heart thuds in his chest. Sex he knew how to handle. He was getting better at long-term friends. But this? This kind of intimacy? Vulnerability? Fuck, he barely knew what those words meant.
He licked his lips.]
But I've known there was something different for awhile now. On my side, I mean. I hate you not being around. I even hated thinkin' about different rooms in the new house. Ain't that stupid? A guy deserves his own space, you know? Nothin' wrong with that. But I hate it.
[His free hand tears through his hair, pulling it back from his forehead.]
I love you. You're the most important person in my life. You have been for a real long time. That part's easy. The rest scares the shit outta me.
No, it doesn't. I don't blame you for not seeing it... I... wasn't entirely aware until this place made it very clear.
[He'd known there was something other than just friendship. At least on his side. After all, he hadn't gone to anyone else, find anyone else, any other place, after his release. After becoming Hakkai. No, he'd sought out the person who saw a pile of refuse in a ditch and decided it was worth saving.]
[And subsequently, couldn't leave.]
[They just worked, for some reason. They just went together like two sides of a coin. But friends did that. Close friends. Best friends. And he will be contented with that, if it's the answer. He has to be.]
[Because he can't lose anyone else. In any capacity.]
[He realizes he's fallen silent while Gojyo speaks. He's hearing him. The words are sinking in. Filling in the chasm that grew up under his feet, piece by piece. Slowly but surely - it becomes less and less likely he's going to start falling again. I hate you not being around - you're the most important person]
[It does, however, take his brain a moment longer to catch up on three of those words. It chews them over. Turns them over. They could mean platonic things. Like friendship. Like what he expected, what he thought he'd get. And nothing more.]
[But...]
You know I could - I would never ask more of you than you could give... [He says it slowly. Carefully. To let the words sink in. And to let himself start to pull their joined hands closer. Trace the lines over the back of Gojyo's palm with his free hand. His eyes on it. On the contrast of their skin.]
I would never push you. If... you want us to remain friends... nothing more - [Until you figure it out, one way or another, goes unsaid between the pressure of his fingers.] - know that you will always remain my most important person.
[Gojyo blinks before waving his hand dismissively.]
I know, man. I know that. You'd never do something like that on purpose.
[At the very least they were best friends. People who always had each others backs. It used to surprise Gojyo how much he trusted this once-stranger, but it'd been a long time since he had.
His thumb brushes across the back of his hand.]
And the-- more than friends thing.
[ Ba-dum. Ba-dum. ]
I want that. I just dunno what I'm doing and don't want you to get ---
[ Frustrated, bored, disappointed, to a point where you want to leave. ]
-- the wrong idea. You know, 'cause of all my experience with the ladies.
[He actually manages the faint ghost of a smile again. It's nice to know, nice to hear, that even with this massive confession, this bombshell dropped between them, Gojyo's answer to Hakkai's assurances is "I know". Of course, considering Hakkai's constant displays of never being able to physically hurt him, maybe it's not that big of a surprise.]
[His mouth feels dry, all of the sudden. I want that. And I love you - and it's suddenly crystalizing under him. Lodging in his throat. It's hard to get his own words out in reply.]
[Because statements like that deserve more than an "ah".]
I am well-accustomed to your habits... [That ghost, wisp of smile warms. Just a bit.] And they've yet to cause me to do anything rash.
[I'm not going anywhere.]
[Silence.]
Unless, of course, you decide to revert to your previous ashtray preferences, that is.
Gojyo coughs on a surprised laugh, trying to muffle it in his shoulder as he laces their other hand together too. His stomach is churning; somehow he feels bashful and like he's about to throw up at the same time.
It's fucking horrifying that he might fuck this up and ruin the most important thing in his life. Gojyo was a lot of things, but a coward wasn't one of them. If he was gonna try to do this, he was gonna try to do this. Not because Hakkai was looking at him like that, but because of how Gojyo felt when he did. It solidified things for him, made him more sure that his gut was leading him in the right direction.
His smile is a careful thing once the laugh passes.]
You did put up with me when you first moved in. Guess I probably can't scare you off now.
To be entirely fair, it wasn't as if I were in any position to judge your lifestyle when we first met.
[And then afterward? Well. Gojyo was trainable. He'd say that much. And fondly, at that.]
[It's a very, very good smile. He'd like to keep seeing it, as often as possible. That one, in particular. Frankly, he doesn't think there's anything Gojyo could do to mess up what it is they have - no matter where they take it. They've been through too much.]
You're never being rid of me, at this rate.
[They're still holding onto each others' hands. Is it too much if he... lifts them up? Bows his head over them. Like a kiss, but not. That might be too much.]
You were kinda passed out and bleeding your guts out.
[And then hiding from the law, more or less. Not that Gojyo minded. It'd been awhile since he'd had reliable company besides Banri. And Hakkai could cook. It wasn't long until they'd really started to rely on each other, especially after he became Hakkai.]
We worked out though, yeah?
[Gojyo watches as Hakkai leans forward almost reverantly between their hands. It's surreal to watch for more than one reason. In the first, he still can't really believe this is happening. Did they really just--- are they gonna-- ???
And in the second, it was hard to believe it was happening to a guy like him . Of all people. He wasn't the kind of guy stuff like this happened to. He wasn't the kind of person people learned more about and decided to stick around for, let alone fall in love with.]
Damn. There go all my future plans.
[His tone is flat, his grin is wry. And with Hakkai's head bent down between their hands it's all the easier to lean down and press a kiss to the crown of his head.]
Literally, in fact. [That's not funny. Stop making jokes that aren't funny. But it's impossible not to, in the moment. Everything feels lighter. Like weights have been pulled off his limbs. For once, since that awful memory share, it doesn't feel like what's waiting for him is an ending.]
[What a different, welcome feeling, that is.]
Oh, you had plans? My sincerest of apologies.
[Again, there's no hiding the amusement, the relief, in every word. Like his face is going to crack from the very happiness in his features. How many times has something actually worked for them? Besides, well, the two of them in general?]
[His heart stops. He should have known. He should have guessed Gojyo would actually make the first move. And it makes the awkward, uncertain lump in his chest thaw a bit more.]
Ah... I think. You may have missed.
[He looks up. Slowly. It's a bit awkward, trying to angle his head so he doesn't knock into Gojyo's. But eventually, he manages.]
[And he's smiling. Really, sincerely, smiling up at him.]
[Honestly, Gojyo can't remember the last time he saw Hakkai this happy. Maybe never. Content, sure. Relaxed, comfortable, absolutely. Relieved, frequently. Before this moment he would've sworn he'd seen Hakkai happy, but not like this. It was like he was a different person entirely.
And maybe that's infectious because Gojyo can feel something warm bubbling in his stomach, rising in his chest.
His eyes crinkle, narrowing as his smile widens.]
Oho, cheeky, huh?
[Going with his gut is also something he's good at. He can overthink things later if he's going to. Right now he's going to lean forward and kiss his best friend.]
[He doesn't hesitate for once. There's no point to it now. Everything is out in the open where it should be. Where he should have had it from the start. His only pause is to murmur a brief - please watch the door - as an aside to his Omen.]
[To make sure there's not a second interruption.]
[That's all, before he leans the rest of the way in. It's been years since he'd done anything like this. It should feel different. It should feel awkward, somehow. He should be making all sorts of comparisons here. That's how his brain has always worked.]
[But kissing his best friend? It's like those thoughts die before they're born. It's like the easiest, best thing in the world. Like they were supposed to do this from the start.]
[Good on Hakkai for remembering to secure the door, because that's the furthest thing from Gojyo's thoughts. His mind is full of Hakkai and the kaleidoscope of fireworks that go off in his chest when their mouths meet.
Gojyo is an excellent kisser. He knows just how to tilt his mouth to deepen the kiss without awkward fumbling. He let's go of one of Hakkai's hands to bring his own up to his cheek, cupping it as he brushes his thumb along Hakkai's jaw. He makes a sound, low and relieved and entirely subconscious when he scoots in closer, eagerly, excitedly.
How is it he had no idea he wanted this so damn bad?]
[Wrapped up like this, the hand on his face, the mouth against his. He's wondering, distantly, why in the hell he'd waited. Why he'd been such an enormous coward. Nothing about this is hard. Nothing about this is awkward.]
[It's like walking back into their house again, after years away. Like stepping back into the warmth of a fireplace after too long in the cold.]
[He's almost laughing into the kiss. His own free hand gently tangling in red hair. Trailing through it. Gojyo really wasn't kidding about his talents - a realization that makes him start to laugh again. Not pulling away for a moment.]
[Gojyo's already grinning into the kiss, fingers sliding back into Hakkai's hair and cupping the back of his skull. He parts their mouths only briefly and long enough to mumble.]
[Put your eyebrows away sir. They're making him laugh again.]
As tempting as that may be, I have to put a hold on any packages. At least until we can both walk again.
[Kissing though, despite what certain primates have said, is absolutely allowed. As evidenced by returning the kiss eagerly, hand once again finding its way into Gojyo's hair.]
[He chuckles low, close enough now to press chest to chest. Lightly though. His ribs still hurt like hell.]
Gives me time to build up that anticipation, huh?
[Minutes pass -- Gojyo has no idea how many. Two, ten, thirty? He'd been a part of plenty of hot make-out sessions but none like this. He'd never lost himself in one before. Gojyo breaks the kiss to take a few deep breaths, closing his eyes and resting their foreheads together.]
This mean I can convince you to actually relax up here with me? [He turns his big red eyes on Hakkai, soft and alluring.]
[And there goes the time. Frankly, he's forgotten about anything else in the moment. Anything else but Gojyo. But kissing him like he's been drowning, like it's the relief he's been waiting for - for years.]
[Maybe it is. Maybe being left sitting here, leaning against his best friend, flushed from kissing him... is relief. Because there's no mission here, is there? There's no evil wave of crazy energy turning people into monsters - turning decent people like Gojyo into something horrible.]
You're going to be terribly manipulative about this, aren't you? [Quit looking at him with those big ol' eyes.] But, if I must...
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Date: 2023-06-12 03:46 am (UTC)[He frowns, finally looking back up at Hakkai from beneath the curtain of his hair.]
My choices got me where I was. My actions. That ain't on you.
[He, of course, knew about Kanan. It'd been how they met in the end, after all. The last thing he wanted if something did happen to him was for Hakkai to blame himself. That might be inevitable, but Gojyo could at least make his stance on the issue clear.
Gojyo gave his hand a squeeze.]
I ain't planning on going anywhere, here or there. Even in the future. Even if--
[He lets go of the bedsheet to gesture at his neck.]
-- this thing decides to fuck up my life. You're important too.
[The next words catch in his throat. He forces them out anyway.]
Never had anyone in my life before who gave a shit and didn't take off.
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Date: 2023-06-12 04:04 am (UTC)[And he can't do a damn thing about it.] I just can't accept it again. I couldn't take it again. Losing someone who means...
[Means an entire world. It would be the last straw. The final blow. He wouldn't really care for anything else. Or try to. Why bother? Just let the monster take over. Let himself go - let one of the others take the shot. Yeah, this would be the most dramatic of bitches here.]
[He's quiet for a while then, just lacing their fingers tighter together. Should he do this? Venture forward? Gojyo is being vulnerable here. He's offering more than Hakkai has. It's not fair to him to just leave things as they are...]
[He swallows.]
Of course I won't go anywhere. My next partner has to be someone indestructible, as... you always call yourself.
[His head feels like it's going to explode, heart hammering louder and louder in his ears.]
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Date: 2023-06-12 05:01 am (UTC)My next partner should be an invincible woman.
It'd been a joke, followed by a quip about how all of his kids would get a crush on their 'Uncle Gojyo.' Hakkai's future wife, he'd said.
Forty years.
It'd be too sexy.
The almost panicked way he kept his mark from him, even if this Hakkai has no memory of it.
Reality settles in, settling like sheets of rice paper. Each one with a different part of the puzzle. Layered together the picture was clear.]
You--
[But his fingers were tight where they twined with Hakkai's. He wasn't about to let him pull away, not now. Even as he stared at him, eyes wide. Breathless.]
-- me?
[Nailed it.]
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Date: 2023-06-12 05:20 am (UTC)[And his mouth with it.]
I know, it's - absurd, isn't it? I'm nothing like the usual sorts you prefer, in any way. It's just not possible. I irritate you, for one thing. Nagging, that's what you call it, isn't it? Or called it. But you see why I offered to go? Why I offered to find my own residence? I shouldn't burden you with something like this. I can't ask for more than just friendship - it won't make you any less important in my life, I don't think that's possible -
[oh my god shut up]
[Because he's still going. He's still laying out every reason he's absolutely sure this won't go anywhere but awkwardly. He's still saying he understands, he's a criminal, he's committed horrible acts, no one should want anything like a relationship with him. Let alone someone who is an actual decent person.]
[He can't even bring himself to look into Gojyo's eyes. Even while he feels them on him. He doesn't want to see what he fears.]
[Incredulity? Rejection? Something along those lines.]
[Hakkai is still rambling when he drops his head into his other hand. To hide his own expression better.]
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Date: 2023-06-12 05:30 am (UTC)After a moment the sound of Hakkai's voice fades out. It's a white noise he can handle because he's seen it... well, not often, but often enough to know what it means. This, he can read.
A soft smile tugs at the corners of his mouth unbidden, and he leans forward. Hands still twined, he closes the distance between them in a manner not entirely unfamiliar. Gojyo has always been physical, after all. Slinging an arm over his shoulder, ruffling his hair. Just generally being in his space.
Being here wasn't unfamiliar at all. It grounded him. And suddenly he knew exactly what to do.]
Oi. Quit that.
[And he rapped at Hakkai's head with his palm.]
You're assuming shit again. Maybe you oughta actually ask me what I think before jumping ten steps ahead.
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Date: 2023-06-12 05:44 am (UTC)[Until Gojyo's hand contacts his head.]
[It's like hitting the reset button on a computer. Or skip on a disc player. He kind of blinks. Rapidly. His train of thought literally off the tracks. For a good handful of seconds, he can only stare.]
... Oh. I... hadn't thought of that.
[Yeah, no shit. But in his defense, however small it may be, he hadn't actually thought they would ever have this conversation.]
Maybe - it's that I'm concerned of what the answer will be...
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Date: 2023-06-12 05:59 am (UTC)[He exhales.]
Yeah, I get that.
[He knows how easy it'd be for him to hurt Hakkai. How fragile he is when it comes to the people he cares about. And even before all of this thee fact that he cared about Gojyo was undeniable. As was the fact that it was reciprocated.
Gojyo had to admire how brave he had to be to come this far. For him this was a huge leap. A huge risk. It deserved at least as much back.]
I had no idea. Seriously none. Probably makes me a dumbass, but I--
[He swallows, his tone softening.]
I never had anyone ... [He gestures with is free hand.] You know. Care about me like this. Ain't never done more than sleep with a girl or a friend or whatever. And even then they didn't exactly stick around. [He exhales a mirthless laugh.] Hell, you know my family situation. So not much love there either.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing.
[Gojyo's heart thuds in his chest. Sex he knew how to handle. He was getting better at long-term friends. But this? This kind of intimacy? Vulnerability? Fuck, he barely knew what those words meant.
He licked his lips.]
But I've known there was something different for awhile now. On my side, I mean. I hate you not being around. I even hated thinkin' about different rooms in the new house. Ain't that stupid? A guy deserves his own space, you know? Nothin' wrong with that. But I hate it.
[His free hand tears through his hair, pulling it back from his forehead.]
I love you. You're the most important person in my life. You have been for a real long time. That part's easy. The rest scares the shit outta me.
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Date: 2023-06-12 06:21 am (UTC)[He'd known there was something other than just friendship. At least on his side. After all, he hadn't gone to anyone else, find anyone else, any other place, after his release. After becoming Hakkai. No, he'd sought out the person who saw a pile of refuse in a ditch and decided it was worth saving.]
[And subsequently, couldn't leave.]
[They just worked, for some reason. They just went together like two sides of a coin. But friends did that. Close friends. Best friends. And he will be contented with that, if it's the answer. He has to be.]
[Because he can't lose anyone else. In any capacity.]
[He realizes he's fallen silent while Gojyo speaks. He's hearing him. The words are sinking in. Filling in the chasm that grew up under his feet, piece by piece. Slowly but surely - it becomes less and less likely he's going to start falling again. I hate you not being around - you're the most important person]
[It does, however, take his brain a moment longer to catch up on three of those words. It chews them over. Turns them over. They could mean platonic things. Like friendship. Like what he expected, what he thought he'd get. And nothing more.]
[But...]
You know I could - I would never ask more of you than you could give... [He says it slowly. Carefully. To let the words sink in. And to let himself start to pull their joined hands closer. Trace the lines over the back of Gojyo's palm with his free hand. His eyes on it. On the contrast of their skin.]
I would never push you. If... you want us to remain friends... nothing more - [Until you figure it out, one way or another, goes unsaid between the pressure of his fingers.] - know that you will always remain my most important person.
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Date: 2023-06-12 06:32 am (UTC)I know, man. I know that. You'd never do something like that on purpose.
[At the very least they were best friends. People who always had each others backs. It used to surprise Gojyo how much he trusted this once-stranger, but it'd been a long time since he had.
His thumb brushes across the back of his hand.]
And the-- more than friends thing.
[ Ba-dum. Ba-dum. ]
I want that. I just dunno what I'm doing and don't want you to get ---
[ Frustrated, bored, disappointed, to a point where you want to leave. ]
-- the wrong idea. You know, 'cause of all my experience with the ladies.
[ Nailed it. ]
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Date: 2023-06-12 06:45 am (UTC)[His mouth feels dry, all of the sudden. I want that. And I love you - and it's suddenly crystalizing under him. Lodging in his throat. It's hard to get his own words out in reply.]
[Because statements like that deserve more than an "ah".]
I am well-accustomed to your habits... [That ghost, wisp of smile warms. Just a bit.] And they've yet to cause me to do anything rash.
[I'm not going anywhere.]
[Silence.]
Unless, of course, you decide to revert to your previous ashtray preferences, that is.
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Date: 2023-06-12 06:59 am (UTC)Gojyo coughs on a surprised laugh, trying to muffle it in his shoulder as he laces their other hand together too. His stomach is churning; somehow he feels bashful and like he's about to throw up at the same time.
It's fucking horrifying that he might fuck this up and ruin the most important thing in his life. Gojyo was a lot of things, but a coward wasn't one of them. If he was gonna try to do this, he was gonna try to do this. Not because Hakkai was looking at him like that, but because of how Gojyo felt when he did. It solidified things for him, made him more sure that his gut was leading him in the right direction.
His smile is a careful thing once the laugh passes.]
You did put up with me when you first moved in. Guess I probably can't scare you off now.
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Date: 2023-06-13 02:37 am (UTC)[And then afterward? Well. Gojyo was trainable. He'd say that much. And fondly, at that.]
[It's a very, very good smile. He'd like to keep seeing it, as often as possible. That one, in particular. Frankly, he doesn't think there's anything Gojyo could do to mess up what it is they have - no matter where they take it. They've been through too much.]
You're never being rid of me, at this rate.
[They're still holding onto each others' hands. Is it too much if he... lifts them up? Bows his head over them. Like a kiss, but not. That might be too much.]
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Date: 2023-06-13 04:11 am (UTC)You were kinda passed out and bleeding your guts out.
[And then hiding from the law, more or less. Not that Gojyo minded. It'd been awhile since he'd had reliable company besides Banri. And Hakkai could cook. It wasn't long until they'd really started to rely on each other, especially after he became Hakkai.]
We worked out though, yeah?
[Gojyo watches as Hakkai leans forward almost reverantly between their hands. It's surreal to watch for more than one reason. In the first, he still can't really believe this is happening. Did they really just--- are they gonna-- ???
And in the second, it was hard to believe it was happening to a guy like him . Of all people. He wasn't the kind of guy stuff like this happened to. He wasn't the kind of person people learned more about and decided to stick around for, let alone fall in love with.]
Damn. There go all my future plans.
[His tone is flat, his grin is wry. And with Hakkai's head bent down between their hands it's all the easier to lean down and press a kiss to the crown of his head.]
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Date: 2023-06-13 04:48 am (UTC)[What a different, welcome feeling, that is.]
Oh, you had plans? My sincerest of apologies.
[Again, there's no hiding the amusement, the relief, in every word. Like his face is going to crack from the very happiness in his features. How many times has something actually worked for them? Besides, well, the two of them in general?]
[His heart stops. He should have known. He should have guessed Gojyo would actually make the first move. And it makes the awkward, uncertain lump in his chest thaw a bit more.]
Ah... I think. You may have missed.
[He looks up. Slowly. It's a bit awkward, trying to angle his head so he doesn't knock into Gojyo's. But eventually, he manages.]
[And he's smiling. Really, sincerely, smiling up at him.]
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Date: 2023-06-13 05:42 am (UTC)And maybe that's infectious because Gojyo can feel something warm bubbling in his stomach, rising in his chest.
His eyes crinkle, narrowing as his smile widens.]
Oho, cheeky, huh?
[Going with his gut is also something he's good at. He can overthink things later if he's going to. Right now he's going to lean forward and kiss his best friend.]
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Date: 2023-06-13 05:51 am (UTC)[He doesn't hesitate for once. There's no point to it now. Everything is out in the open where it should be. Where he should have had it from the start. His only pause is to murmur a brief - please watch the door - as an aside to his Omen.]
[To make sure there's not a second interruption.]
[That's all, before he leans the rest of the way in. It's been years since he'd done anything like this. It should feel different. It should feel awkward, somehow. He should be making all sorts of comparisons here. That's how his brain has always worked.]
[But kissing his best friend? It's like those thoughts die before they're born. It's like the easiest, best thing in the world. Like they were supposed to do this from the start.]
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Date: 2023-06-13 06:57 am (UTC)Gojyo is an excellent kisser. He knows just how to tilt his mouth to deepen the kiss without awkward fumbling. He let's go of one of Hakkai's hands to bring his own up to his cheek, cupping it as he brushes his thumb along Hakkai's jaw. He makes a sound, low and relieved and entirely subconscious when he scoots in closer, eagerly, excitedly.
How is it he had no idea he wanted this so damn bad?]
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Date: 2023-06-14 03:36 am (UTC)[It's like walking back into their house again, after years away. Like stepping back into the warmth of a fireplace after too long in the cold.]
[He's almost laughing into the kiss. His own free hand gently tangling in red hair. Trailing through it. Gojyo really wasn't kidding about his talents - a realization that makes him start to laugh again. Not pulling away for a moment.]
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Date: 2023-06-14 04:49 am (UTC)What're you laughing at?
[He chases his mouth, pressing closer.]
Gonna hurt a man's ego like that, you know.
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Date: 2023-06-14 05:00 am (UTC)But I suppose - I never expected to be able to bear witness to your claimed prowess like this.
[And judging from the fact he's going in for another round, he's as thoroughly impressed as advertised.]
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Date: 2023-06-14 05:13 am (UTC)That's right. Front row seats to the Gojyo show for you. Just wait 'til you unwrap the rest of the package.
[For better or worse, Hakkai was pretty well stuck with him now. He leaned in to steal another kiss, sure and confident.]
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Date: 2023-06-14 05:31 am (UTC)[Put your eyebrows away sir. They're making him laugh again.]
As tempting as that may be, I have to put a hold on any packages. At least until we can both walk again.
[Kissing though, despite what certain primates have said, is absolutely allowed. As evidenced by returning the kiss eagerly, hand once again finding its way into Gojyo's hair.]
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Date: 2023-06-14 06:16 am (UTC)Gives me time to build up that anticipation, huh?
[Minutes pass -- Gojyo has no idea how many. Two, ten, thirty? He'd been a part of plenty of hot make-out sessions but none like this. He'd never lost himself in one before. Gojyo breaks the kiss to take a few deep breaths, closing his eyes and resting their foreheads together.]
This mean I can convince you to actually relax up here with me? [He turns his big red eyes on Hakkai, soft and alluring.]
I bet I'd heal up real good if you did.
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Date: 2023-06-14 06:38 am (UTC)[And there goes the time. Frankly, he's forgotten about anything else in the moment. Anything else but Gojyo. But kissing him like he's been drowning, like it's the relief he's been waiting for - for years.]
[Maybe it is. Maybe being left sitting here, leaning against his best friend, flushed from kissing him... is relief. Because there's no mission here, is there? There's no evil wave of crazy energy turning people into monsters - turning decent people like Gojyo into something horrible.]
You're going to be terribly manipulative about this, aren't you? [Quit looking at him with those big ol' eyes.] But, if I must...
[Flop down again, and tug Gojyo with him.]
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Date: 2023-06-14 06:49 am (UTC)[He confirms happily, shifting to lay down next to Hakkai. He drapes an arm casually around his waist, trapping him beside him.]
Like you ain't gonna do the same. Soon you'll have me doin' dishes, hangin' up laundry...
[Gojyo leans in and kisses him again, just because he can.]
I ain't building separate bedrooms now though.
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